harry potter in peace

i am guilty, or at least i feel it. by now you all know how restless i can be when i have a goal in my head. it was being a musician, now it resides solely in flying and being awesome at that. as you can imagine there is alot of work that goes into it, reading, practicing and the like. as with anything, being successful requires total submersion in it. but here is the thing, i dont have enough time for that!
okay, i want to be the best. i need to be reading about flying, practicing, studying, flying flying flying flying. well...right now i want to read harry potter. and that makes me feel guilty, like i am not putting enough of myself into it to really accomplish anything. so here is what i want to do, make flying my normal everyday life, so that i can read harry potter or watch tv and not feel guilty about it. does this make sense? its kind of like that scene in high fidelity when rob proposes to laura, and says that he is tired of thinking about it, and wants to think about something else. i want flying to be what i do and who i am, so that i can do other things as well. ah well...soon enough i suppose eh?

Ever say something that you say everyday and realize that it sounds completely retarded and makes no sense?  I just did.  And it’s a term we all use, all the time, but probably never think about it.  Hang out.  Where the hell did this phrase come from?  We are all gonna go hang out at the mall, we are gonna go hang out at our friends place…what the hell does it mean anyway?!  We all know what WE mean when we say it, but other than that, what the hell is it?  Lets take it literally, it would go something like this: 

Person who has never heard the term hang-out:  “hey, how are you today?”

Hanger-outter:  “I am doing well, yourself?”

PWHNHTTHO:  “Splendid, thank you.  What are you doing to do tonight?”

HOer:  “Nothing much, probably just hang out.”

PWHNHTTHO:  “hang what out?” 

HOer:  “um…..hang out.  I am going to hang out.”

PWHNHTTHO:  “using what?  Fasteners?  A flag pole?  Velcro?  Because I have seen those Velcro suits where you jump against the Velcro wall and you stick.  That looks like fun.  Can I fasten myself to a wall with you?”

And Scene. 

This is a gem of modern English I must say.  And does anyone else feel like an idiot when you use “google” as a verb?  I googled it.  Oh just google it.  Google google google.  We sound like 4 year olds with a speech impediment.  How did this not catch on with other things, like cars?  I am going carring.  Or TV, we don’t say we are televisioning do we?  No, we choose google, the stupidest sounding company name in recent memory, to turn into a verb.  Good job us. 

further retort of my blog getting boring

K folks, we are six months deep into my 24th year. if you recall, the number 24 is the center of the universe, my lucky number, and thusly i predicted that everything big that is going to happen in my lifetime will happen between august 3rd, 2005 and august 3rd 2006. We are at the halfway point, so i think this is a proper time to reflect on what has happened so far:

1) Biggest thing of course is me flying. License was finally obtained November 13th 2005 after getting rained out 6 weeks in a row on my FAA test. But i got it on the first try with the FAA so im happy. Currently have 93.9 hours logged, which isnt a terribly huge amount, but i think i fly pretty well for a young pilot, other folks agree.

2) Job, i cant disclose too much yet but i am leaving the bank very very soon. and what field will i be getting into? well unless youre an idiot you can figure that out, but exactly what ill be doing i cant fully disclose yet. ill keep you posted on this one. but put it this way, im never looking back

3) living situation: i am moving back to RI as a result of the job change. see previous post for description.

4) girl: well now, here is the interesting one. did i meet someone since august? yes i did. did i love our time spent? a stupidly huge amount, yes. was it rushed? you bet, and that was my fault, whoops. has the bar been raised as a result? absolutely. do i wish things would work out with this one? a goddamn whole lot.

so there you have it, the first half of my year. most things are looking fairly awesome in my favor. flying is my life, and i love it more than anything, the job is working out, the living is going to be sweet, and the girl...well we'll see about the girl...no worries though, im just enjoying everything right now.

anyone want to go flying wednesday this week? some sight seeing in the mountains?

A new post as a direct result of complaints from little people

im tired of boston. im probably more in need of a change of scenery than a need to get out of boston in particular. ive been here for 6 years and chased dreams every which way through the city. as it turns out they werent really here to begin with, but i had to be here to find that out. all in all, its been a good ride.
so where to poot? Rhode Island is where. as you may all recall, i almost moved down a few months ago but i freaked out at the last second. but something funny happened since then. its not homesickness but ive started missing alot of the small parts of life outside the city. and i do mean small things. warm summer breeze coming off the water and into my bedroom window in the summer, the feel of grass underneath bare feet (without the fear of stepping on a syringe), beaches, cookouts, and dogs. i think i tried to be a 20 something person, go out to bars, hang out, be cool, but its just not me, at least not up here. i can still go hang out at bars with friends and things, but for the most part its not me. too many people try so hard to be so very cool and its disheartening. i guess you could say im too wholesome. *gasp*
i'll be leaving boston sometime in the next few months. i have the job already lined up in RI, living situation too, all that i have to do is sublet my apartment. is it a little sad? of course it is. i am leaving some great friends behind. thank god i am a pilot, i can swing up here anytime i want very quickly. but i cant shake the thought of waking up everyday, going and doing something i love to do, something that makes my days beautiful beyond description, and having that be my life. its just too good to be true.
if you listen to dave matthews' before these crowded streets, there is that hidden track after spoon ends. "come in from the cold for awhile, everything will be alright, come in from the noise for a time, everything will be alright..." thats how i feel right now.