harry potter in peace

i am guilty, or at least i feel it. by now you all know how restless i can be when i have a goal in my head. it was being a musician, now it resides solely in flying and being awesome at that. as you can imagine there is alot of work that goes into it, reading, practicing and the like. as with anything, being successful requires total submersion in it. but here is the thing, i dont have enough time for that!
okay, i want to be the best. i need to be reading about flying, practicing, studying, flying flying flying flying. well...right now i want to read harry potter. and that makes me feel guilty, like i am not putting enough of myself into it to really accomplish anything. so here is what i want to do, make flying my normal everyday life, so that i can read harry potter or watch tv and not feel guilty about it. does this make sense? its kind of like that scene in high fidelity when rob proposes to laura, and says that he is tired of thinking about it, and wants to think about something else. i want flying to be what i do and who i am, so that i can do other things as well. ah well...soon enough i suppose eh?