hmph

im kind of throwing in the towel here folks. i am starting on my life in the air, which i would never want to trade for anything, but in doing so, i am really abandoning any possibility of having a relationship with anyone. everything in that realm seems pointless at this point. any "lead"i have had in the past few months has shriveled and died like a neglected houseplant. as i have said in the past, i am not going to make any attempts at starting anything new, which i stand by, but it still incredibly difficult when your me, someone who thrives on companionship. whenever i go flying, there is going to be that seat to my right, empty. how many gals out there are adventurous enough for me? rockstar enough? at the same time, wholesome? basically, who is perfect? please raise your hand. i would love to see that, it would this whole thing a lot easier.